matociquala: (bear by san)
Well, today was supposed to be a hugely productive day, which was largely derailed by an absolutely killer and pointless anxiety attack that I finally managed to get the better of about an hour ago. So now I feel less like I'm harboring a chestburster, but much more like I want to collapse in an exhausted heap--but I have not written nearly as much as I wanted to, so I'm going to go back and try to get some more. Because I really, really want a draft of this story by the end of the year, because god damn it, 2016, I will beat you.

I've got almost 27,000 words of it, though, and I don't think it will go to much more than 35, so that's still doable if I really dig in.

I've been writing first thing in the morning, mostly, which is nice and involves co-authors, but does involve eventually having to get out of bed and let the dog attend to his biological needs. Here are my coauthors helping this morning, however:



I moved to the living room after that so I could watch it snow more conveniently. The snow, alas, was a bit of a disappointment on the nor'easter front--our predicted 8-12 inches turned into about a wet inch and a half overnight. Well, at least we probably won't have to shovel much.

And we did get a fuzzy-tailed visitor. (Scott saw rabbits last night.)


matociquala: (tea)
Tea blogging resumes over on the Wordpress blog, with a photo of my exciting new birthday teacup!
matociquala: (wicked fairy bowie)
Feeling a funny kind of at peace with myself today. Perhaps it's the persimmons. Perhaps it's just that I'm sitting in my work chair with my dog and a pot of tea and a defined task for the day.

2011 07 04 daily commute

Tea today: Upton's berry herb
Teacup today: one of my prized possessions, a gorgeous tea bowl by the inimitable [livejournal.com profile] jonsinger
Dog today: The usual, only even more in need of a bath and grooming session.

Today is a Rest Day, valkyriewise. I might take the dog for a walk later. But I'm feeling yesterday's yoga session in my shoulders, and I'm climbing tomorrow and Wednesday, so a break seems in order.

Good gravy, it's good to be home.

Now to revise this damned story, so I can cross it off my to-do list.
matociquala: (evile overbear)
Muggy this morning, but the GRD and I still managed to jog about 3K. He'll be six this year, and I'm starting to notice the first signs that he's not a young dog anymore.

But I'm not a young human anymore, so it works out.

While I was away, my garden exploded. I spent part of Tuesday morning weeding it out (breaking the top off one of the tomato plants in the process, dammit), and I am pleased to announce that it is cheerfully producing foodlike objects for consumption later. Also, the pear tree that isn't in hard shade from the beech most of the time is producing its little heart out. These are not so much pears for eating as pears for hand-to-hand combat, but they bake up just fine and they make fabulous pear butter.

The first tiny tomatoes are coming, and I've already eaten some of the peas and baby carrots, and given some to the neighbor kids. Lettuces and spinach nearly done until autumn.

2011 07 03 garden 002

2011 07 03 garden 005

2011 07 03 garden 003

Watch your mailboxen come August, people who have received food by mail from me in the past. *g*

I'm going to drink a little tea and do some yoga and then go sluice the sweat off and work until it's time to leave for the 4th of July party.

There's nothing like the end of a long, hard to-do list coming into sight to give a girl a second wind.

Tea today: Stash ginger peach green
Teacup today: the turquoise-lined tea bowl [livejournal.com profile] lindorm & co. gave me in Stockholm.

2011 07 03 daily commute
matociquala: (evile overbear)
Muggy this morning, but the GRD and I still managed to jog about 3K. He'll be six this year, and I'm starting to notice the first signs that he's not a young dog anymore.

But I'm not a young human anymore, so it works out.

While I was away, my garden exploded. I spent part of Tuesday morning weeding it out (breaking the top off one of the tomato plants in the process, dammit), and I am pleased to announce that it is cheerfully producing foodlike objects for consumption later. Also, the pear tree that isn't in hard shade from the beech most of the time is producing its little heart out. These are not so much pears for eating as pears for hand-to-hand combat, but they bake up just fine and they make fabulous pear butter.

The first tiny tomatoes are coming, and I've already eaten some of the peas and baby carrots, and given some to the neighbor kids. Lettuces and spinach nearly done until autumn.

2011 07 03 garden 002

2011 07 03 garden 005

2011 07 03 garden 003

Watch your mailboxen come August, people who have received food by mail from me in the past. *g*

I'm going to drink a little tea and do some yoga and then go sluice the sweat off and work until it's time to leave for the 4th of July party.

There's nothing like the end of a long, hard to-do list coming into sight to give a girl a second wind.

Tea today: Stash ginger peach green
Teacup today: the turquoise-lined tea bowl [livejournal.com profile] lindorm & co. gave me in Stockholm.

2011 07 03 daily commute
matociquala: (criminal minds diana reid crazy)
2011 07 02 the daily commute

...back in the saddle again.

Tea today: Caribbean blue lady
Teacup today: Squid mug.

It's good to be home. And I have a shiny new phone, as you can see. It does GPS and doubles as a book and a music player and a thing to check my email on. Once I move my contacts over, it'll feel like home.

Closer and closer to the elusive hip unit we come. What I can't get over is how nice it feels in my hand.

Now I'm going to cowboy up and start revising "Gods of the Forge," since I can't afford to ignore it for a week. Or a month. Or six. At some point today there is supposed to be kayaking, and I need to make a pot of beans so I have something to eat all week.

Sometimes being a grownup (or a professional, if you prefer) is doing the work even though all the pieces aren't in place, and relying on craft and skill to carry you through. Sometimes being a grownup is being able to look at a situation where you have enormous investment and little control, and being able to breathe and let go.

Life is like an endless series of novel subs.

In other news, this dog smells bad.


Slowly, the to-do list comes under control.


State of the Honeydew:

write "Gods of the Forge": July 11, 2011
revise "Gods of the Forge": July 11, 2011

Range of Ghosts page proofs: July 12, 2011
Online Writing Workshop review: July 15, 2011
Online Writing Workshop review: August 15, 2011
RoF column: August 25, 2011
Sad fantasy story: September 15, 2011
Shattered Pillars: November 2, 2011
Victorian fantasy story: December 15, 2011

travel:
Odyssey: July 1, 2011
Clarion: July 10-16, 2011
100-Year Starship Symposium, Part II: Sept 30-Oct 2, Tampa
Viable Paradise: October 7-16, 2011

2012:
"Latency": March 2012
An Apprentice to Elves: June1 1, 2012 with [livejournal.com profile] truepenny
Hard SF adventure story: June1 1, 2012
Steles of the Sky : November 2012
"Underworld": September 2012

2013:
"Dark Leader": March 2013
"Something's Gotta Eat T. rexes": September 2013


No fixed deadline:

"The Deeps of the Sky"
Karen Memory
Smile (unless its name is actually Salt Water)
Unsuitable Metal
Gotham Jazz

"Form & Void"
"Untitled Space Opera Thingy" aka "Periastron"
"Steel Monkey"
"Spellslinger"
"Posthumous Jonson"
"The Death of Terrestrial Radio"
"On Safari in R'lyeh and Carcosa with Gun and Camera"


bookkeeping )
matociquala: (spies steed horseback)
One of my orchids bloomed while I wasn't looking! It's the Phalaenopsis, in all its spotty glory. There are still two or three bugs on the shoot, but odds are I won't get to see them, what with the Europe trip and all. Still, bloom! Only the second time since I bought it.

2011 05 31 daily commute 003

Tea today: Stash green ginger peach
Teacup today: green stoneware

Today we choose faces do laundry. Also, I want to break out my guitar, which I haven't touched since I got back from Arizona. Renewed interest (rather than guilt) is another sign the brain fog is lifting.

Oh, what a job I have, that requires repeatedly pushing one's self to a state of mental exhaustion, and this is regarded as normal.

Other than that, it's looking at houses, walking the dog, and reading a book. Last day of time off: tomorrow I have to try to start getting my chicks in a row regarding the shorter of the two stories I must write in June.
matociquala: (leighton pavonia)
Still in post-novel ennui. Beginning to be irritated with my apparent inability to do anything except play Zuma, sleep, and walk the dog. The rational part of my brain occasionally insists that I've been working flat-out since January of 2010, and maybe it's okay if I crash a bit, but the Puritan guilt is always there nagging away. Don't worry, Puritan work-ethic. Soon we will be insanely overscheduled again.

Right now I'm going to take my tea and my book out to the porch and watch the dog chase squirrels and robins out of the yard.

I figured out why I really like this one Arcade Fire song, when I can't tell most of the others apart* despite finding the general concept of the band awesome**. It's that Reality-era Bowie influence.





(This especially amuses me because I first heard of Arcade Fire because Bowie was pimpin' them all over NYC and the internets, which was long enough ago now that I still tend to refer to them as "The Arcade Fire" unless I go back and edit myself. Which made me very much want to like them, and I never quite could despite repeated attempts****. I suspect I need to give this whole album a chance to grow on me.)

Anyway.

Teacup today: Baroque green one that has a lid somewhere.
Tea today: Upton's Tindharia Estate Darjeeling FTGFOP1 CL*****

2011 05 26 Daily Commute 004  2011 05 26 Daily Commute 003 

tl;dr: Here's a picture of a very smug cat********:

2011 05 26 Daily Commute 001

*This is a common affliction with me: the Spin Doctors have "Cleopatra's Cat" and then all those other songs.

**Long ago, and probably heavily influenced by War for the Oaks and Twisting the Rope, I was working on a novel revolving around a group of musicians too big to be a punk band, and without enough of a horn section to qualify for ska***. Nothing ever came of it, but hey, Arcade Fire. Successful life imitates failed art, in this case.

***The band name in that case was Nyx. I don't remember what the spec element was supposed to be.

****I have also failed to like Nick Cave and Garnet Rogers, among others.

*****"Finest Tippy Golden Flowery Orange Pekoe 1st flush CLonal (I did not actually have to look that up. Oh dear.)******

******Once you get started with a good run of footnotes, it's hard to know when to stop. I'm sure Hunter S. Thompson would agree.

********The Very Large Object, my roomie's cat.
matociquala: (can't sleep books will eat me)
2011 05 25 daily commute

Tea today: Queen Mary's mango passionfruit black tea
Teacup today: Teddy bear picnic

Goals for the day are simple: walk the dog, wash the dog, climb, go to the bank like a grownup or something, buy cat food.

My brain may be growing back slowly. It's been a long, long run of gnawing deadlines, and it's nice to have a couple of days when I don't absolutely have to work.

I'm thinking about postcard stories, too. A couple of more days of brain-refilling and I might even be competent to write some.
matociquala: (bad girls firefighters)
2011 05 22 the daily commute

Teacup: Swag mug from the NAMI charity walk yesterday
Tea: What's in it for this photo is microwaved chocolate soy milk, but I'm drinking the Upton's Young Hyson

Bruise situation is uncomfortable, but I'm not in as much pain as I expected. All that practice falling turns out to be good for something.

I wrote what I hope will be the introduction for [livejournal.com profile] truepenny's forthcoming short story collection "Somewhere Beneath Those Waves" last night before bed. If it sounds like I was stoned on muscle relaxants, you'll now know why.

I've got a breakfast with a fellow VP instructor and his daughter today (There's still time to apply!) and then I have every intention of having a Day Off, with more Six Feet Under, dog brushing, and the reading of books. Oh dear me, time off, And only 20,000 words and a set of page proofs to get through in June.
matociquala: (sf farscape d'argo's your daddy)
2011 05 20 the daily commute 002

Teacup today: Car Talk heat reactive preachy mug
Tea today: Coffee with anise and cardamom

In a minute here, going to be groveling back into action on Book of Iron. I'm just eating breakfast and trying to focus. It was hard to get out of bed this morning. I'm pretty sure once the blood sugar comes up, though, we'll be doing better.

And I do have a plan of attack for the rest of the additions. I'm out of what I had originally drafted, and writing a new ending. We'll see how it goes. At this point, I'd probably just work straight through until it was finished, but I have a charity walk tomorrow morning.

By the way, cucumber slices work pretty good as a cracker replacement. If you were wondering.
matociquala: (can't sleep books will eat me)
2011 05 19 the daily commute

Tea today: Upton Christmas Tea
Teacup today: Squids, for book finishing.

Yesterday in New York was fun. It rained a lot:

2011 05 18 NYC 007

(That's inside the back greenhouse at DBA)

Here, have a picture of the Bryant Park carousel:

2011 05 18 NYC 003

Now I have to cowboy up and finish this draft of Book of Iron. Don't expect to see me on the internets much until it's done.
matociquala: (can't sleep books will eat me)
2011 05 19 the daily commute

Tea today: Upton Christmas Tea
Teacup today: Squids, for book finishing.

Yesterday in New York was fun. It rained a lot:

2011 05 18 NYC 007

(That's inside the back greenhouse at DBA)

Here, have a picture of the Bryant Park carousel:

2011 05 18 NYC 003

Now I have to cowboy up and finish this draft of Book of Iron. Don't expect to see me on the internets much until it's done.
matociquala: (leighton pavonia)
While googling up an image of myself for a different reason, I just found this completely awesome caricature of myself from 2009. In august company, even. Obviously, I need to ego surf more.

...nah.

Just got back from a friend's graduation party and talking my mom into coming to NYC with me on Wednesday on very short notice, since the person I was going with cancelled.

As a reminder, I will be reading at the KGB bar with Felix Gilman at sevenish Wednesday night.

So tired, and feeling kind of crappy and out of it. More TV and reading, I think.

2011 05 15 daily commute

Teacup today: green stoneware
Tea today: Stash ginger peach, because it's the kind of day for tea with ginger in. My goodness.
matociquala: (new england quiet before the work)
Two perfect days in a row, and now chill and grey. Still not winter, though, and rain makes the flowers grow.

2011 05 14 daily commute
Tea today: Upton Peach with Flowers
Teacup today: Green and white Japanese
matociquala: (criminal minds reid runs like a girl)
Gorgeous out there. Can it stay like this always?

Got up early and took the dog for a 5k. Someday, I will do that at something other than a shuffling jog. Today is not that day.

2011 05 13 daily commute

Tea today: Stash White Christmas
Teacup today: green stoneware

76.8 miles to Mordor. Send eagles: I aten't walking back.

Soon, some yoga. Today is also a Rest Day.
matociquala: (iggy pop amazing abdomen)
There are no words more blessed than Google Calendar's morning email saying, "You have no events scheduled for today."

Actually, I do: archery tonight. But I think other than that I'm going to make this an official Rest Day. It's unbelievably beautiful out: cool and clear, and the leaves are getting to grown-up size, and the lilacs and azaleas are blooming madly.

I should be working on Book of Iron. But I can't: what I need to write isn't in my brain yet, and nothing will put it there except for time and patience. I have two middle chapters to write: I know the broad strokes of what goes there, but not the details.

And I am very tired. Slept through both alarms this morning, and fell back asleep with the radio still on. Even though I was asleep by midnight last night.

So I think I will sit on the porch with some tea and a book and the dog, and pre-cook some things to see me through the busy week(s) to come (A roasted chicken. White beans and mushrooms. I found a nice tomato and am having BLATs for lunch, by god.). Maybe eventually take the D-O-G for a W-A-L-K. Normally, I hate taking a break with work undone, but right now the spirit is willing, but the brain is empty. I may have found a limit.

The Squirrel Police Never Sleeps:

2011 05 12 daily commute

Tea today: Upton Roobos Pretoria (bush tea with flowers, basically)
Teacup today: Shadow Unit

The cat has forgiven me. She moved back into my bed last night. I can't wait to see how unhappy she is with me after June/July. We may not talk for weeks.
matociquala: (literature sally and encyclopedia)
This is your one-week warning: I will be in NYC next Wednesday for a KGB reading with Felix Gilman. Come play! I'll probably be hanging out at dba on 1st Ave before the reading--if you are in the city, come find me!

Back to the daily grind:

2011 05 11 daily commute

Teacup today: My GoH gift from LepreCon, a mug from Sylvan complete with Green Man.
Tea today: Brazilian Sweet Orange yerba mate from Queen Mary Teas.

I wrote 400 words on the Book of Iron revision yesterday and was forced to admit that I need to come up with something awesome before I continue. So today will be devoted (mostly) to coming up with something awesome. And possibly recuperating. And then climbing.

I may be forced to admit, bought up in endurance or not, that I need a little time to recover. Hopefully a stroke of genius will ensue. (Seriously, I need a super cool idea. And those sometimes take a little time to generate.)

I did also get 3/4 of my travel arranging for the rest of the summer done, though, and sent an email about the other bit. June and early July will be lost in a haze of airplanes, conventions, teaching gigs, and ports of call: then I have to write Shattered Pillars. And not go anywhere for more than an overnight until Viable Paradise. (Still accepting applications: now with Special Guest Instructor Steven Brust!)

The glamour, man. The glamour.
matociquala: (comics bone stupid stupid rat creatures)
2011 04 25 daily commute 003

Tea today: Upton's Sencha, Shizuoka #2
Teacup today: [livejournal.com profile] soloadventure bowl

I've decided I'm punting the CEM until I get to Texas. Of course, to compound my going-away guilt and stress, the GRD has a bladder infection and is on antibiotics. His grandmother will take good care of him, anyway.

Things to do today:

Strip bed.
Laundry.
Make bed.
Dishes.
Finish reading the book I am reading.
Post office.
Start reading the last three books for my RoF column.
Climb.
Fold laundry.
Pack.
matociquala: (criminal minds boom)
Tea today: Upton's Duflating estate Assam

Teacup today: Green stoneware, even though I wanted my comforting squid again.

TBRE made breakfast. And thank dog....


2011 04 23 daily commute

...Because here's what I have to do today:

Ideomancer slush
Viable Paradise slush
customs forms
a slushkill meeting

post officea
crit
100 pages of CEM





Here's what I want to do:

Read Daniel Silva
watch Mythbusters

moar tea, pls?

However, [livejournal.com profile] nisi_la did send me this beautiful photo from the PKD Awards last night (The book cover is pretty nice too, even if it does look like Tristen may be cruising her a bit), at which I was a bridesmaid again.



Congrats to Mark Hodder, whose The Strange Affair of Springheel Jack is kicking ass all over the place, and Harmony by Project Itoh, respectively the winner and runner-up.

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